Will you guess when I come around next, I hope your open sign is blinking still.

Today I realized there's no point to still holding on because holding only hurts.
Holding only reminds me that you don't want me and that there's nothing I can do to make you. I don't want to feel inadequate anymore.
I didn't think about you all day today. It made me sad when I realized this but at the same time made me realize I'm actually getting over you.
There's nothing I can do now, I've held on for entirely too long.

I'm erasing you where I like it or not.

A realization of inadequacy.

I wasn't into sports (AF), motorcycles, and I never asked you about your day. I get that I was a very self-absorbed person. I never talked to you about your interests and after awhile I became too much to handle. I see that. I know it's my fault. It usually is, I warned you. I guess I should be thankful that you took a chance on me. I just wish you didn't give up so quickly, even though I guess I did, too. I feel like maybe you meant more to me than you were supposed to, that maybe I was starting to feel too strongly for you too quickly. I'm at fault for that. I fall so quickly. Which contradicts everything about me.
No matter how much I over-analyze I still won't know because you won't give me the time of day. I wasn't that important to you.

To you, I am disposable.

I guess these words still haven't reached your ears regardless ofhow many times I've said them.

I am miserable here and the worst thing is that I'm comfortable. I'm so comfortable that if I feel sort of happy something feels off.
I feel like I'm drowning.

I'm not making the best decisions when it comes to school, I'm doing things that I'll have to make up for later. I hate using my issues as an excuse but it is relevant, unfortunately.

I really wish I would have left.