Sometimes I wish I could ask you how you're doing, how your day was, and if life is working out for you. Some of these I should have asked before. Before, I went and ruined the best thing that's ever happened to me.
It wasn't hard to stay, I guess I should say it's your loss? But, I won't because I know it's mine.
How could I fall for someone I barely know so quickly?
I don't understand myself when it comes to love. I'm so skeptical when it comes to everything, but, when it's love I dive in head first. I need to learn how to test the waters. Start dipping my toes in before I take the big plunge.
I blame myself to make it easier for you and I don't know why. I say that I broke my heart, that it's my fault to make you look better. I don't think I could ever think badly of you and I don't want to.
Without you around, I'm drowning. I think it's the most honest I've been with myself in awhile.
I'm lonely, which I do to myself but I just have this big hole in my heart that nothing can fill.
You're completely irreplaceable and I was fooling myself if I thought otherwise.
I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'd rather die than find someone else.
I don't want to start over.
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