#1

How is that when I close my eyes I still see your face so clearly? Most of the time when I try to remember others faces, that I see every day mind you, some of their features are left out. But, not yours, everything is there. But, why do I remember yours so well? It's like they're engraved in me, much to my dismay. Because all I want, all I really want is to forget you just like you forgot me. And even though my feelings for you have subsided-- or more like buried, buried so deep inside that it's not even worth trying to dig them up again-- I can't quite get over you. Well, not you, I can't get over what you did. I can't find it in me to, my mind can't escape the understanding I'm pining for.

I don't think it's your fault that I am this upset and depressed over what you did. No, you see, it's happened to me before; losing someone that I cared about and let in, it's happened a lot more than I deserve. The fact that I thought it would never happen again is what ultimately crushed me.
I need to start saving myself from disappointment before it happens. But that's easier said than done. I'm skeptical of everything else, God, friends, life, myself, etc, but when it comes to liking or loving, I fall so quickly. Not that I've ever been in love. Not even close.

(I almost feel like we were really meant to be, I mean everything about you was just unbelievable to me. But, you didn't feel the same.)